Second Letter (Waiting is Taxing)

Dear Reader!

It's almost funny, this feeling of misplacement. Whatever I am doing, I can't fully concentrate on it because I am getting anxious. Thankfully it's nothing too bad, but it is annoying and keeps me from relaxing.

The thing is, I love it here in Estonia, especially in the summertime, but I also can't wait to move to Far Far Away. Now, just waiting wouldn't be so bad, because I'm enjoying myself as it is and it's just one more month too, after which I won't be able to see my family and friends for at least 3,5 months.

So I'm taking all I can from this summer.

No. What's making me anxious are the things I need to do before moving. Most of them are things I can only do in the city, but that is a problem because like always I am spending the summer out in the countryside. I adore the place, I really do, but it does complicate things.

Thinking logically, I know I will be able to manage everything by the end of August. Still, I am constantly thinking about how I need to pack my suitcase (which I can't do now, because my things are divided between my two homes) or how I need to print out some more documents (I don't have a printer in the country-house) or how I need to take my flute to be cleaned and polished before leaving (or do I really? Well, I don't know yet, because I haven't had the chance to go shopping so I am not yet sure how much money I have left to spend in Estonia...).

In all honesty I am over-worrying, but I also think I have a right to be concerned. After all, I haven't moved out from my mother's house before, much less to go to University in Far Far Away.)

So this is basically just a post to vent about my inability to sit still and wait like a normal person. Oh well, what can I do. Writing helps, though, so I am already feeling much better. I am just going to go and try to enjoy the rest of my summer in relative peace. Whoever might be reading this (how does the blog thing work even? How do people find random blogs to read? It's going to sound so strange to you, my friends/family, when you read this. I sound like a lunatic speaking to a mostly empty room as if it's full of audience...), let me know if you have any questions about, say, the application process or anything else like that.

Yours sincerely,
MNlehmaplika